well i just dont know what to think!

I guess this is a sort of serious post, sorry! this is my outlet! my outlet!

so i went downstairs at like 11:30pmish and the tv was on and all the lights were on and the door was unlocked but my parents were no where to be found and the car was gone. wierd for the martin household. i went downstairs to see if kelly knew and all i saw was erik sleeping in his briefs with the light on so i went back upstairs.

Anyway i go back down around 1am and kelly is outside smoking and i go KelLLlLllyyYyY in a spooky ghost voice from the window and she screamed a scream of genuine terror. my sisters a spaz. and i asked where mom and dad were and she said they were at the hospital (always! i kinda figured but i thought it was my sister having a crazy kelly hospital emergency) cuz my dad is having irregular heartbeats. So mom just called kelly and shes coming home and dad is getting admitted to downtown detroit with like some kind of heart arrhithmea (which tells me nothing, because thats what irregular heartbeats mean anyway) so like.. do they think hes having a heart attack or hes dying or what?? i kinda worry about my parents sometimes because they are both like candidates for heart attacks, they both big mid 50s yadiyada. So what am i supposed to be thinking about this?

i feel like i should be more concerned than i am. im staying up i guess cuz i wanna know whats going on... but my moms coming home soon and shell probably be upset.. what do i do with that? if shes upset that probably means i should be too... agh. i dont know! i dont want to deal with crying! i will stand awkwardly not crying while they are crying. i mean its probably serious if hes getting admitted downtown. so there that is. i dont know why i felt like blogging this. its a downer. but its on my mind! so there you go