oh boy

Wellll... im watching south park and ween were on it? Whaaa? Push the lil dasies? I was excited. and by excited... i mean mildly amused.

Moose is helping me type today.

Sooo ill start with the fun stuff before i go straight to bitching about my sister. So xtina, amber, and i went to sponge on wednesday! It was a lot of fun. Well first we got there kind of late, which means.. well doors were at 8 and we finally parked around 8:15... we couldnt find parking because all the floats for the thanksgiving parade were on woodward and thats where the Majestic is. anyway, we parked, got to the doors, and there were 10 people tops waiting outside, and they let us in after about 5 minutes. We found a setlist and as it turned out, there were 3 other bands before sponge and they didnt go on until midnight. We were kinds like... ehhh at first, but it gave us more drinking time. it was fun. there were burlesque acts between bands. they were kinda lame but we saw a lot of boobs with pasties on them.. and the bathroom was out of paper towels so i wiped my hands on my big black sweater thing, and one of the hot ladies was in there too and i let her use me as a paper towel. i was aroused. achacha. anyway.... xtina made out with 3 different boys. one tried to put his arm around me after they made out so i put my arm around amber and moved away. groossss. xtina was sloozin it up. it was funny. so sponge came on at midnight. they started with wax ecstatic and they played 3 out of 4 of their singles right away. but i was pumped about it. singer man was hot and he was right in front of us, it was cool. he had the hots for xtina?! she pulled in all the mens. he held her hands and sang to her literally 3 times. and during one of their last songs, he let a whole bunch of people on stage and he tried to get her to go up but she didnt. BUT she talked to him backstage and he blew all these other floozes off to talk to her... so i guess were gunna stalk sponge now. they play in pontiac the 26th and i think we goin. it was a fun night. it was long enough for most of our drunks to go away so we werent to crazy driving. we clearly ended out night at like 3am at the nip.

i worked 12 hours without a break today. gross.

thanksgiving was yesterday. it was just me and the parents. we all agreed eriks a pompous ass. those were my moms words. we talked at length about it. but you know how my mom is, after a while she gets huffy cuz she feels like she has to fix something. and im like mom were just venting. but she doesnt get it.

well now i am ready to bitch about kelly and erik. what is the stupidest thing they could do?? i really want you to think about it! because i guarantee your answer will be what they are really doing. they are..... trying... to have a baby. right now. right now while they are living in her parents basement. TRYING. TRYING TO HAVE A BABY. TRYING. TO. HAVE. A. BABY!!! agh!!! and theyre reason is because i guess its not healthy to have babies past the age of 30 (i can only assume that was pulled out of someones ass) and kellys 27 btw, but erik is 32. they are dryin up i guess. you know what i think will make an unhealthy baby? kelly and erik. any time. even ignoring any physical problem that it will definately have, can you think of all the crazy emotional problems this kid will have? erik is autistic. kelly has sculliosis. kelly is still manic depressive (or so i was told like a year ago). i dont need to list it. because they are both morons. the plan is that.. well kelly will definately have a job within the next 9 months. but NO ONE would ever hire a pregnant woman who hasnt had a job in 5 years. nooo one. what the fuck? what the fuck really??? they have to know thats gunna like put them on welfare and foodstamps. they are essentially planning to go on welfare. they are those people. GROSS. i cant defend it. if they ask me what i think... i cant defend it. i wont be able to say one nice thing. agg when i write this much it doesnt let me hit enter to make spaces anymore. agh!! well i guess ill leave you with this.... mom was telling me how kelly doesnt feel like she has a sister because of how i treat her and erik wishes he could walk in a room without me making him feel unwelcome. i was considering doing those things. until now. i really cant defend them or their behavior. they are both idiots

aw helll no

My brother in law is an idiot. seriously. After dinner today, instead of saying just thanks to my mom, he said "thanks for trying". she was really upset and i guess she told him off. she said he didnt have to eat it and he said, well its there. seriously!! and my mom doesnt like... go off on people. but she did. hes an ungreatful piece of shit. no one wants him to live here. NO ONE wants him to live here. he would be encouraged by me or my dad to leave on any given day. if i were her i wouldnt cook for him anymore. because. hes an asshole. i already thought it. last week we were talking about how he never says thank you for anything... and he finally did, and it was a thanks for trying?? who says that. it doesnt matter if you like it or not. you just dont say that. i dont always like everything my mom makes, but i would never say that. what was he trying to achieve? to hurt her feelings? ugh i want to sock him in the face.

hey yalll

well well well. im in good spirits today, i do say! i do say! not that i shouldnt be! but i am, nonetheless. nonetheless.... ahhhh. im back on the workout train. its good. im not aloud to watch dawsons creek unless i work out... or just worked out.. because dont worry yesterday i watched 6 episodes of the creek. 6. thats the sign of a good day. so season 4's almost done. and on to the college years! im excited to watch those, i dont know them as well. BUT ANYWAY thats my motivation to work out. more creek. umm what else..

today allison and i went out to lunch. it was fun we went to applebees and i ate shrimp. it was a good time. then we went want watched Pirate Radio (time #2) and i just love it! its really funny. i like everyone in it.

Tomorrow is sponge! i guess i would be seeing the cranberries today BUT i am excited to see sponge. xtina, amber, and i are going. its going to be really fun. we will drink lots of beer and rock out.

my phone sucks. i keep trying to turn it back on because i have a text in my inbox but it keeps shutting off. its done it like 5 times in a row. but if i buy a phone now, i have to pay full price and if i can hold out til february (i think) then i get really good discounts... so i guess unless it really dies ill keep it til then.

still no snow. i sort of want snow. only for about a week though. then ill be done. but i havnt even needed a coat yet. i guess i could wear a coat.. but not necessary. and my coat is just for show anyway. crystal i might talk you into going to like burlington coat factory or something so i can find a cheapie. cuz i dont really want to wear mine. i will but it doesnt really do anything besides look cute. very cute. it doesnt really feel like winter.

thanksgiving is in 2 days!! fun fun fun, no work. kelly and erik wont be here! so that means i can actually hang out downstairs if i want to! its just me mom and my dad. im happy with the situation. ive talked my mom into making a pumpkin cheesecake. ive never had one but it sounds like a good time.

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... that is all.

avon lady

Well... i dont know if i used to be this batshit crazy... but i am!! ahhhh!!! im going out of my skin and i think i know why. im in my head all the time! all the time!! like since ive become potless... i think way too much, and its getting really annoying. thinking is overrated. i know i need to do it sometimes. more than i was probably... but im an anxious girl! for real! and i dont know if i just got so used to pot that without it... im kind of a mess? i dont know! i mean im not a pothead. i dont smoke during the day. just at night! i needs it. im really just annoyed with myself. i have done so much self analyzing these past few weeks, well i just couldnt be more self aware! i know im kind of in a rut, i get that, and i have some ideas on how to work on it but i dont need to think about it ALL THE TIME but i have been. and im annoyed. im usually fine during the day, its just like at night when im hanging out by myself and watching tv and i really just... think to much. fuck that shit.

I have a funny little anticdote related to all that. At xtinas work, her friend sharon is my dealer. anyway they cant say pot at work so theyve been calling it cat turd, cuz thats kind of what it looks like. but theyve changed it. they call it buying avon and sharon is the avon lady. and she said shes workin on my avon order. so i am pleased. i want to work that into my vocabulary.

Tonight is a good night to be watching talk shows. for real. this sounds really lame but robert pattinson (you know, twilight) was on letterman... and hes a charmer! i never really thought he was all that great.. but yeah i definately wouldnt turn that down. in the bedroom. if we were to bone. BUT ANYWAY craig furguson is on next, and i love him anyway, but as a little added bonus, david duchovney is on! fox mulder in the flesh!!

UHHHHH WELL it took me a minute to get to this.. maybe because my soul is so crushed... but... the cranberries have been cancelled. i tried to find out why but i couldnt. it just happened today. im hoping it gets rescheduled but they said theyd refund money back to my credit card. gross..

but on the bright side... well i was clearly looking for something good on ticketmaster because i was really looking forward to the cranberries and i was trying to find a way to fill the void... and sponge is playing on wednesday for $12 so xtina and i are going to that. it will be fun. its the day before thanksgiving, biggest drinking day of the year. it might be a little bit of a party. im excited. i cant get too out of hand though cuz a, we have to drive home from detroit, and b... i got so drunk last year that i broke off xtinas soapdish in her tub and forgot about it AND the next day i was so hungover i couldnt eat for thanksgiving. so i may be the responsible one. we shall see. im hoping to meet a cute rock n roll boy. a really dirty one.

ah geeze

i deleted all the pictures so hopefully this loads better for certain people?? who are assholes?? certain assholes?? certain assholes who cant view pictures?? just kidding.

o gd-it. I just dont even know about life and this world. this weekends been ok so far. well i guess i havnt posted in a few days so well start simple. monday and tuesday i literally farted for the entire day and did nothing. i reanalized life both of those days. im not sure what that means but i dont know if its good or not.

uhhh wednesday crystal and i saw men who stare at goats. i really enjoyed it. george clooneys butt was in it and there were good drug scenes?? i dont know i enjoyed it. it was a silly movie. and i like silly movies. we ate red robin and i had a delicious bbq burger with little onion rings on it thats what i would eat every day if i could. thats why i need to use my eliptical. dangit.

i wish i remembered twilight better. i know i hated it.. but i was up in the clouds when i watched it. i want to watch it and know what im watching so i can judge it accurately. can all these people really love a movie thats that bad? probably...

yesterday allison and i went to the bar. i think im over stockdales. for real. i always see people i know that id rather not see.. i like was going to do a mini wave at mike p---- but i think he went out of his way not to acknowledge me. really. i wasnt going to make you have a 10 minute conversation with me asshole, i was just going to wave. i didnt even plan on using words. i feel that way about all of them. except for maybe mike s but id just rather not. hes cute but hes really just one of them. and i hate guys like that. i really do. BUT ANYWAY we left after one pitcher and we did that thing that andrew doesnt want me to talk about anymore and we played scene it. that part was fun. we played seriously for like 2 hours. we stopped moving our pieces around and we just did movie trivia.

today was ok. saturday. i worked all day. the morning i read. im reading sphere. its really good. action packed. im diggin all this michael crichton. in the 6-cl shift the allisons and i sat in the backroom for like over an hour with matthew wagle while we should have been working.... we got these like pushpops that light up but i dont want to sell them because... its an awful idea to sell light up suckers in a movie theater so weve just been eating them and we were sitting in the back room disecting the lights and we had a photo shoot with matt and he had the lights on his nipples and his dong. ill post them at some point. thats what we spent our time doing. it was really funny. agh this is stupid to explain without a picture because theres no way to really convey what i mean well..... but on the back of this steven king book, theres a picture of him in a doorway with his arms up holding the top of the door and he looks very serious. its the silliest picture ive ever seen. its become a joke at the state wayne so matt always stands in doorways and does the pose. its great. he did that for the light up pictures. ill try to send it. CRYSTAL its like in the sunny episode mac bangs the waitress the brother i forget his name but he keeps standing in doorways and it cracks me up! just watch it youll see. we also took the lights and put them in a cup and put holes in the cup and it looked like stars on the ceiling. fun.

and now.. i am drunk by myself. this is what i do. my sister and erik always eat $5 pizzas from little caesers and i never eat the leftovers but i want it sooo bad.

oh gene simmons (i somehow feel i need to clarify: kiss singer). im so dissapointed with you. im so dissapointed with you. IM SO DISSAPOINTED WITH YOU.... ah geeze.... so kiss preformed with adam lambert (that boy from american idol with all the eyeliner) and like the next day gene simmons was publicly quoted saying that adam shouldnt talk about his sexuality so much. (GAY) and i was sort of pissed. agh. was there really any reason for him to talk about it? really? no ones asking you to hang out with him. and i guess so when someone comes out that means their flaunting it? thats really all he did. i was mad. gene my love for you was just blossoming! and now.. kinda pissed. its sad. i hate to go on a rant.... but i hate everyone...

anyway, fuck you guys. im out. peace.

Thought id spice things up... sorry

Have you ever received a hickey from the last person you kissed?

Nope. that was a one time only! the amazon! ahhhh its been that long! sad! i needs to do something stat!

Will you kiss them again?

Eh i somehow doubt it.

What time did you wake up this morning?

Around 11. I watched the gilmore girls and ate a delicious pot pie.

When was the last time you cried really hard?

Eh nobody wants to know all that

Think of your last kiss, was it good?

Yeah it was actually really good. groping and everything! dangit

Is the last person you kissed attractive?

I thought so or else i wouldnt have done it! but i was also really drunk!

Have you ever held hands with the same sex?

Yeah im not sure who hasnt! i guess a lot of boys wouldnt. but whatevs!

If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
Hmm i feel like in the past i would have always said fall... but right now.. i want summer! i just want it to be hot all the time!

What was the last thing you drank?
Well im clearly drinking beer... Im doing a survey, what did you think!!!

Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
nah its all me

Have you ever kissed the last person you text messaged?
Ha wellll not with tongue!

confidence cute?
It depends how confident...  i definately hate anything that resembles cocky. so theres that.

Where is your mother?
downstairs reading

Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
Well... right now i wish xtina was here because the biggest loser is on but shes too busy shellin out sausage!  dont worry she works at hickory farms now!  thats all NOBODY ELSE. jjjjk

What made your day?
Um today was kind of ehhh.. i did very little.. BUT i did discover recently that fye sells used cds for like $5 and under so i bought 3 more today.  i got 2 more cranberries cds and a stone temple pilots cd.  AND the biggest loser is on. two people go home today!  its really serious

Do you think the last person you kissed is nice?
I wouldnt know.

Who should start the kiss, the girl or the guy?
The person who isnt me!  maybe thats why i dont do it so often!

Have you ever kissed anyone within an hour of meeting them?
Yeah its a good time

Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?
Hopefully soon!  my insides are exploding

What are you doing tomorrow?
Crystal day!!  I think were seeing Men Who Stare At Goats!  it looks like a good time.  maybe red lobster??

Do people ever call you by your last name?
No. maybe as a joke? but really, no

Did you kiss or hug anyone in the last 48 hours?
Ha wellll ive hugged my mother and my moose

When I say the word "spring", what do you think of?
the season

Name something you dislike about the day you're having?
Motha fucking boredom! im kinda goin out of my skin.  im at a loss.

what are you siting on right now?
on my beautiful couch

do you ever think these questions through?
not so much... as previously stated.... drunk. i have to be to do this

Do you understand football?
For the most part. do i like it? no

Have you told anyone you miss them lately?
yeah i believe so. thpppppppp. i stole this from heather and she talked about how her lova goes to school an hour away and how awful it is and i wanted to fart on her face.

Is there someone that can make you smile no matter what?
ha who knows

Would you ever live with any of your best friends?
absolutely!

Have you ever looked at the stars with someone?
its happened

Tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?
FUCK MY COCK. ya know... i dont know who i like. there are little likes here and there but nothing crazy serious. i liked the ms but hes seein a slooze i do believe.  sad. 

Do you swear often?
yeah id say so

How's your hair right now?
annoying. i want to cut it and dye it... but you know how i am, i really dont want to make an appointment somewhere. its wierd.  i know.

Have you ever hooked up with someone just to make someone jealous?
nah

Are you under the influence of anything at the moment?
lots of beer

What would you do if the doctor told you that you were pregnant?
Id wonder who was raping me while i was sleeping?  i was like over 10 days late i do believe on the ol p-rod.  i would have been really nervous if i was anyone else.  id clearly abort it if it was for reals.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Not in the least

Last thing that made you cry?
ugh

 Do you have a bad temper?
um i dont think so. i can get snotty. i get snotty at work sometimes. and with my family.

How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime?
i think its been 4

i dont have any pot.

Remember when Roseanne's mom came out of the closet? I havent watched roseanne in quite some time but its the later ones after they won the lottery and her moms a lesbian, darlene has a baby, and they are all rich. Its a little out of hand. And remember the last episode? Roseanne has the worst last episode of any show in the entire world. but i still love it. in the episode right now, this guy wants to make a movie about their story.

moosie is my darling. i hate that i became a cat lady. my hands are always covered in scratches now because i let her eat them and scratch them. she loves to do that. fuck.

i dont really have anything good to say. Its like 1:30 and i dont want to go to bed. and as the title indicates, i dont have any pot. its a sad way to live.

my mom hates erik because he never thanks her for anything. hes a dick. i said that hes a jerk in front of her and she agreed. my relationship with my sister has suffered more than one may have suspected. i dont know what to make of it. i literally feel disgusted when she walks into the room. i dont know that i care. it might be ok one day but i think i big part of the problem is that she comes with erik. and he smells. he had a waft of stink come off him the other day. it had a 10ft radius. I think it was 2 days ago i was watching tv in the living room and erik and her walked in and started having a conversation that started where he insinuated they should bang, then she asked if they were going to church and then bingo sunday and he didnt want to go to bingo but she was trying to guilt him into it. yep you heard it my sister is officially 80, if you didnt know that already. but anyway, the point to this was that they are really inconsiderate and dont care if they talk over what you are watching about things you dont want to hear. so i said "did you guys know that its rude to walk into a room and have a conversation when someones watching tv?" and they left. not that i was watching anything good.. but seriously who does that when there are other empty rooms to talk in? fucking rude people do that. really, youre going to talk about boning in front of me? really? not something i want to think about!

i wonder if they are annoyed with me as i am with them. im sure erik is. im not very nice to him. but hes just such an idiot. he doesnt understand sarcasm. really neither of them do. they just defend the other point and you have to say that you were kidding. i really do just avoid them most of the time.. but i still have to see them sometimes. i have noticed they dont come to my work anymore. thats nice. i think ive burned many a bridge. im really the dick in the situation but maybe they should work on being less irritating. phew im done.

To making it count

I watched Titanic last night. It was delightful. My mom put it on at like midnight and i didnt even want to stay up late.. but it was on, i didnt really have a choice.

So... dawsons creek is releasing the entire series in a box set. i wont buy it. but can you imagine all the sweet special features on there? Can you imagine it??? AGH There was like a mini creek reunion for the release of it and i was pretty mad i wasnt there. I just want to hang out with Dawson, thats all i want.

Ambers bday party is tonight! And dave is picking us up so i dont have to worry about getting extra ripped. Its at US12 and she got the back VIP room, ahaha! ive never been back there but im pretty stoked about it. Im a little nervous to meet all her friends, and its a joint birthday party so i dont really know how many people are going to be there... i may have to pre drink.. sammie and xtina are going to im sure ill be ok.

Oh what else? I went with my mom to buy a new dryer today. I had to put it on my card and shes going to pay me back. The salesman had a giant nose, i wanted to bone him in the store. he was very tall and skinny and he wore a sweater vest. he also made bad jokes. i loved all of it.

fuck all yall im peacin out.

ugh!

Ok. so. today ive had to wait TWICE for my sister to finish shitting. twice. for like 20 minutes. she brings a book in with her every time. erik does it too. erik pooped the other day for 45 minutes. i just dont buy it! thats not necessary! i dont believe that both of them really of that big of a bathroom issue that they have to spend multiple half hours a day pooping. there are 5 people living in this house! its really rude.

i feel like if i have to poop a little, i hold off until i actually have to poop and it comes out like a breeze within 5 minutes. i feel like thats just what people do. AND sometimes i feel like it might take a while so i leave and come back. BUT THERE IS NO REASON that should happen every day for 2 different adults. my conclusion is that they are both very inconsiderate. but i guess i didnt need the poop situation to figure that out.

I havnt posted anything for 10 days. SORRY LOYAL READERS. HA

Well! I dont even know where to start! I've been a drunkass. I havnt been online much. Ah my beautiful car. It makes me want to cream myself. I cant even explain what a change it is. The best thing is to like, put in a cd and have it work right away.. and soo much satellite radio is happening to my life. And i have autostart! gahhh its all just so darn great. SO DARN GREAT.

So halloween week came and went. Sad! I feel like a lot of it passed me by.. well thats not entirely true. I did a lot of fun things. No haunted house though... But i have watched SO MANY scary movies. so many. AMC this whole week has been playing nonstop horror movies and ive been watching all of them. I've put a lot of thought into why Freddy, Michael Myers, and Jason are the best movie villians ever. They are a power trio. I know thats really not anything new. Its sort of obvious. But its really evident when you watch new horror movies. I was watching the first halloween and the music is amazing! for reals!! All 3 of those have memorable music! and it builds up the movie! saw doesnt have music, and thats probably why the saw movies arent nearly as good. They play a crappy rock song because its really hardcore. ANNOYING.

I really have been drunk like all week. It's ok, i feel like this is a good week to do that. Tuesday xtina and i watched the biggest loser and we drank out fancy halloween drinks. they were sort of awful but we put them in fancy goblets. we switched to beer and had a crazy naked beatles dance party. It was really fun but I payyyed for it the next day. I tried to have crystal day but i couldnt. i was very ill. i smoked lots of pot so i could eat and slept all day long. by like 9 i was feeling kind of better and kim called so we went to the martini bar and i some how managed to drink more, not a lot though. we sang so much. i sang lightning crashes all by myself. i brought down the house. Me and kim are best friends with the kareoke lady bethany. We hug now. its funny. She said to invite her the next time we go out.

Anyway, thursday was the goth art show. It was sweet! I had a lot of fun. my boyfriend marilyn manson did not make an appearance though. Me and xtina drove seperate and we wore all black. i bought a new slutty shirt, yesss! its a boob shirt! it goes down to my bra line and i didnt wear anything under it. i liked it. i never get hit on but i got hit on kinda bad twice that night. but im getting there. anyway, everyone there was wayyyy more hardcore than i thought they would be. i thought we had to be kind of fancy.. but this was a for real hardcore goth show. there was this girl with these hooks in her neck that were bleeding and they went out into a big metal ring around her neck. and there were so many tophats. and there were taped nipples. i would have dressed crazier had i known. there was a goth granny, she had to have been at least 65. So there was this boy that started chatting me up about art. AHHHRRT. i was looking at something and he walked up and said "do you like this piece? I love how its very simple and the colors..." blah blah blah and i wanted to die. I talked to him for a few minutes but i snuck away when he turned his back and he was my stalker for the rest of the night i guess. So thats fun.

after the art show, it was like 12 so me and christina went to stocks and this boy sat next to us and asked if he could sit with us and talk about music. we let him. one of his front teeth was half broken off, we should have known. we talked for a while and it seemed ok but i guess he got continuingly sleezier (christina had to fill me in, at this point i dont remember a whole lot that was said). i invited him to the nip with us. i talked at length about how to get myself off really loudly. i cant go to the apple for a while. he prollie thought we were gunna bone later. he payed for us but didnt leave a tip so i said we had to leave one and i took the rest of his money. on the ride home he asked if he could stay over my house and that we could all snuggle. i said no and that i live with my parents, it would be wierd. he said hed sneak through a window. i said well, its on the second floor. its really dirty anyway. he kept being really persistant so i was just flat out saying no. he was rustling through xtinas back seat, presumably to steal something. when we let him out, he slammed the door without saying anything.

I was ill on friday again, pulled it together for work. Saturday (last night) was sammies party. It was really fun. we played circle of death and everyone got really silly. we had crazy photo shoots. i kinda farted out early though. i had too much drinking this week. i was bummed, but at like 12:30, my body was done.. i guess its kind of ok cuz i got there at 7, but still! i was ready to go to town. but i couldnt stay. i got really drunk, and then i kinda calmed it down, and i wasnt that drunk anymore but i could tell if i drank more id just feel sick, and i just wanted to go to bed. so im lame. xtina stayed over there until 5. whatevs.

Work all day today. fun fun fun. i felt ok today and it was everyone elses turn to feel like shit. everyone at the wiz had a hangover today.

im out of pottery. i think ima take a break and not get more for a lil bit. im gunna not drink for a lil bit either. i dont feel like im getting anything done. my room is officially disgusting me.

No plans tomorrow and its a beautiful thing. im gunna sleep in and have a cleaning day and im gunna rock out to some fun tunes. I think me and xtina are going to kareoke wednesday. its what we do now. we have a spot. ill try to get some pics. its my favorite place in the world. i dont even need to really drink to sing. like a little, but i dont need to be hammered by any means. ambers bday party is at us12 on saturday. i desperately need to have sex with someone. not that thats related to anything i just said.

would i be lame if i tried to learn guitar again? ive been thinking about it and i feel like id be able to pick up somewhere around where i left off. i think i could still read tabs and im confident i could learn easy songs right off the bat. i just could never strum. but if i practiced...? i dont know, im not a teenager anymore, i feel like id be more patient. i could maybe find a cheapie?

xtina and i were dangerously close to booking a cruise on thursday. we had the flight looked up wed get and our cabin on the ship picked out, it was going to the bahamas. oh you dont know how bad i want to go... but we ended up doing something sensible and not doing it. i could technically afford it but id have to put us both on my card and she doesnt have the money and shed have to pay me off so my credit card would have a lot on it for a while, and i just bought a car, i really dont need to be going on cruises... but i just want it! im anxious! lol i want to relax. on a beach. in the bahamas. dangit. we thought itd be a lot cheaper but it would have been about a grand each. maybe i can get allison to do it early next year or something? i would feel a lot better about it if it didnt all have to be on my card, but with xtina it kind of has to be and who knows when id get payed back. and she knew that too so thats why we didnt do it.. vegas is freakishly cheap in december/january but it actually gets pretty cold. but you can get hotels on the strip for $25. probably because its cold. BUT we could see cirque de solei! i dunno. i think were gunna do a mini trip in december for her birthday.

Yesterday i carved a marilyn manson pumpkin and a freddy kruger pumpkin.

halloween pickies

pickies deleted!!

There will be more! I still need to post a car picture. Woopsies. I have a lot of cool pictures in my new camera that i havnt loaded. I would say soon but I guess I cant promise that. BUT heres some i stole from sams myspace