i havnt posted in about 15 years

im watchin the creek so i guess lifes pretty good. drinkin some beers. new years eve is in 2 days. i want to know how in the college seasons of the creek they can always drink beer. the GOOD thing about it is that when they drink it doesnt always mean something is really really wrong with them, theyre having a good time. but they drink a lot of underage beer. and jack osborne is in this episode? what? it was brief but still... well thats just silly.

anyway... ive decided im going to wear andrew down and make him meet me in greece. ive looked up on it and decided there is no where id rather go. it obviously wouldnt be until like the summer so it would be beautiful. and it is, it is sooo beautiful. andrew suggested meeting in turkey in an email, which is pretty damn close to greece. one little country away. and where i want to go in greece is on the eastern side. its goin down. athens is pretty close to the coast and we could stay in cheap hostels around the area and take a boat out to one of the islands and go in the caves. it would be amazing. by that time my finances will be in order so i can screw them all up again, it sounds like a great plan to me.

what else... new years.. well i was looking at this amazing party at the "fillmore " (state theather thppp) and it looked sooo good. there were like performance artists and a dj and balloons and confetti drop at the new year. i think it would be amazing. they had a shuttle to the hotel we would stay at so no one would drive. BUT me and christina are the only ones who could do that and it would be admittedly a little lame with just 2 people.... sooooo its just us two at my house i think. maybe a little us 12 but i think id almost rather stay in. i dont know that wed dance if it was just us 2. but anyway shes got a j-dawg and were gunna mix champagne with orange juice and drink the shit out of it and have out own dance party, probably in the nude. thats all i need to do.

ive been kinda crazy on the work out train. its good. i worked out for like over 2 hours today. that sounds crazy but i guess its really not. im hoping by summer ill lose enough weight to look not awful in a bathing suit..? im not saying great, just not awful. im hoping i can keep up with it. its really not hard to do, its just making the time and actually doing it. i havnt really changed my eating patterns. which i should. but this is a shitty time of year to diet. holidays and binge drinking. its whats happening.

umm sponge. sponge was great. it was a really great night. its funny.... well last time we saw sponge we were so worried wed be late because it started at 8 and we got there at like 8:15 or something... and sponge didnt go on until midnight... well dont worry.. doors were at 7 and the place was in mount clemins and we had a horrible time finding it.... and they played at 12:15. sooo many shitty bands before. but it was really nice. it was me, xtina, sam, and amber. amber fits right in our little group and i love it. we talked and got trashed. there was this delicious popcorn we kept sneaking and we kept laughing cuz we thought we werent supposed to eat it but... we were drunk and i think it was communal. sooo sponge came on at 12 and it was great. singerman made the eyes with xtina but she didnt persue it. i was mad. i think she could have at least made out a little. near the end people go to go onstage so we did and we all danced. we partied. the bass player hit on sam. sponge loves us. not me though, i was a skeeze. but soon ill be basically angelina jolie. look out. its comin.

xmas was good. the day before we ate a lot of shrimp and it was really good. i got some movies. the pineapple express makes me feel magic in my pants. everything they say in that movie is golden. i got a chris moore book. i got a lot of makeup. theres this thing that has like 10 different mascaras from sephora and i really like it. theres some really good ones. i had to go to my aunts house and listen to one of them talk for like an hour about her kids.

dawson and joey are about to have sex for the first time.

i watched this movie with brittany murphy (andrew are you up on your gossip? shes dead if your not. clueless is probably going to feel tainted now) and it was a really bad horror movie, but in a good way i guess. i jumped a lot and i didnt know what was happening most of the time.

theres so much i wanna see in the theaters! sherlock holmes?! nine?! up in the air?! its complicated?! (like you would ever) crystal if you saw all of them im gunna kill you in your sleep.

umm is that all i have to say about life?? probably. ill probably update in like 5 months or something.

im in the downstairs computer room and a cat is pooping

today was day one at the gym. im feeling good about it as of now! so yayyyy! i did the eliptical for an hour. their eliptical is a lot harder than mine was! which is a good thing. i feel the burn! I didnt mess around with weights today, i dont really know how most of them work and i dont want to be the idiot girl trying to figure out the machines.... SOOO tomorrow allison and I are going together and she knows about a lot of the machines so shell help me not look like such an idiot. well i kinda did that today because i left my makeup on and i worked out and i came home and i had black shit all over my face. i hope people noticed. i thought this boy was checking me out ( he was rock n roll, and i was wearin my dresden dolls tank top, dont worry) but as it turns out... no i just had raccoon eyes. but its ok. im gunna be hot soon. my parents both offered me beer today and i said no both times! im not gunna totally stop drinking, im thinking like one day a week or something? if i totally cut myself off from everything i love then i wont get anything done. my plan for now is to like.. eat oatmeal or cereal for breakfast, like the real serving size. and go about the rest of my eating day as normal. i think thats doable. because i always eat really horrible things when i first get up. so cutting out one bad meal a day is good. i want to lose 2 dress sizes by sams wedding and i wanna take home a hot boy (ms!) to bone. thats the plan.

anything else? i dont think so. i think i updated yesterday! well today was crystal day. i bought presents for people. it all felt kind of lame though, it was like practical stuff. i got my sister pillows and my mom tv trays. boring. my dad wants a birdhouse. i have to do that online i guess, i looked today and it was a no go. it was windy as hell and really cold so we called it an early day. it was fairly productive though. now i just have to buy stuff for my grandmother and that birdhouse. no big. i dont know what my grandma wants. thats annoying. shes not going to get me anything good. she doesnt have money but i wish she just wouldnt get me anything so i didnt have to get her anything. im a jerk. but i dont care i guess. there arent very good movies out. im waitin for sherlock holmes i guess. i wanna see the princess and the frog! i want to see the princess and the frog... stoned! i think that would be great. i watched the little mermaid stoned once and it made everything so much more intense, like when shes singing at the end of part of your world on the rock and the water splashes up behind her.. intense. anyway, i think it looks good. i miss the old disney movies about princesses.

my parents are in the kitchen discussing kellys emotional problems. lets see if they say anything good. not really. nothing too interesting.

i had sweet potato pie for the first time in my life earlier today! it was actually really good! it was basically like pumpkin pie except a little mellowed out..? i dunno i like it.

i know this sounds really lame... but the goo goo dolls are playing mgm on new years eve and i kind of think that would be really fun. its like $50 though. but ive never been out somewhere celebrating the new year. and i like the goo. they have a lot of singles. and i dont care what anyone says, iris is magical! i love it! it will never get old! haha the verve pipe is coming soon too. i would also like to do that. we were only freshman!!! if its cheap maybe ill try to talk someone into it. i dont know. i want to watch bands. i love it. xtina and i are stalking spongeman on the 26th though so theres that. i hope they bone. id be excited about it.

its snowing a little now. nothing has stuck though. i want it to stick for a little while. then ill be over it but it sounds nice for now. at work, were plotting to built a giant snow peenie right behind kujos car. so she couldnt pull out. hahahahaha it wont happen but i think it would be a good time.

well....

its been a hot minute since ive updated. i feel like a lot has happened!! ill try to make this not too long. i tried to update a few days ago and i moved my computer the wrong way and it crashed. it does that.

I guess ill start with a week ago! On monnnday, ms xtina and i went to frankenmuth. We spent like 3 hours in bronners and i wanted everything there BUT as it turns out, each ornament is $8-$20... so i only got two. ones cute, it says peace love and rock n roll on it with a little guitar. the other one is clearly a mug of beer with glittery foam spilling from the top. THEN we went to.. gah i cant even think of what its called! bavarian inn, thats it!! it was an eating experience, haha. it was really good. they bring out like 8 different side dishes and we drank beer and ate chicken. ive never eaten there before so it was fun. then downstairs there were fun little shops. i bought my mom monty python beer, because that exists.

later on that night we went to the bar and there was this boy there who used to have a crush on me in high school and his friend bought us lots of beer. xtina was convinced we are soulmates, but i was convinced he is white trash because he has a pregnant girlfriend and a giant cross tattoo on his arm that says rip somebody. buttt it was still fun.

What else happened this week? i was really excited, this boy i was friends with all through elementary school friended me on facebook. I went over his house all the time, he lived across the street but he moved in 6th grade, havnt really seen him since. He got a little cute but im not sure if hes really trashy or not. he has really bad spelling. ANNND he sent me a little facebook im thing but i didnt notice it until he was offline, so i sent him a message but it was like a week ago and he hasnt responded!! his info says hes a republican with an !, so maybe he saw how silly i am and decided hes against it?? or maybe he just hasnt gotten around to it and im silly, who knows.

ummm the rest of this week was pretty boring. kujo was crazy, of course. we decided on sunday to just like... never go in the back and be on everything so she had nothing to bitch about. but of course she found something, she was mad because we all tolerate her but no one really likes her. i just want to punch her. its work, we dont have to be friends. heather is the person she tells everything too, and heather then tells us everything... so i like it

i joined anytime fitness today with allison! i need to lose weight. i feel like i just keep getting fatter. its annoying. but i do feel inspired. i think i can eat better, i really do. alcohols kind of an issue.. but i feel like if i drink like once a week, thats not a big deal. i dont know. im just sick of bein big, ive never been small! and it sucks! i wanna dress slutty sometimes! soooo im gunna do my best. my plan is two go down 2 sizes by sams wedding, thats 6 months. i think its do-able.
i feel good about it. its a cute gym. i hated working out at the rec because i always saw people i knew and you have to look all nasty walking through a lobby all the way to the back. and here you just go in and its all there. its small and i like it. its open 24 hours too, so i really have no excuse. so there that is!!!

anything else?? probably nothing worth mentioning. tomorrow is crystal day. do you wanna see brothers?? i do but i somehow feel like its a no go! well talk! probably before you read this! oh well. i guess i need to eat better when we eat out? feck. ima pull out the stops. ok im done typing.

oh boy

Wellll... im watching south park and ween were on it? Whaaa? Push the lil dasies? I was excited. and by excited... i mean mildly amused.

Moose is helping me type today.

Sooo ill start with the fun stuff before i go straight to bitching about my sister. So xtina, amber, and i went to sponge on wednesday! It was a lot of fun. Well first we got there kind of late, which means.. well doors were at 8 and we finally parked around 8:15... we couldnt find parking because all the floats for the thanksgiving parade were on woodward and thats where the Majestic is. anyway, we parked, got to the doors, and there were 10 people tops waiting outside, and they let us in after about 5 minutes. We found a setlist and as it turned out, there were 3 other bands before sponge and they didnt go on until midnight. We were kinds like... ehhh at first, but it gave us more drinking time. it was fun. there were burlesque acts between bands. they were kinda lame but we saw a lot of boobs with pasties on them.. and the bathroom was out of paper towels so i wiped my hands on my big black sweater thing, and one of the hot ladies was in there too and i let her use me as a paper towel. i was aroused. achacha. anyway.... xtina made out with 3 different boys. one tried to put his arm around me after they made out so i put my arm around amber and moved away. groossss. xtina was sloozin it up. it was funny. so sponge came on at midnight. they started with wax ecstatic and they played 3 out of 4 of their singles right away. but i was pumped about it. singer man was hot and he was right in front of us, it was cool. he had the hots for xtina?! she pulled in all the mens. he held her hands and sang to her literally 3 times. and during one of their last songs, he let a whole bunch of people on stage and he tried to get her to go up but she didnt. BUT she talked to him backstage and he blew all these other floozes off to talk to her... so i guess were gunna stalk sponge now. they play in pontiac the 26th and i think we goin. it was a fun night. it was long enough for most of our drunks to go away so we werent to crazy driving. we clearly ended out night at like 3am at the nip.

i worked 12 hours without a break today. gross.

thanksgiving was yesterday. it was just me and the parents. we all agreed eriks a pompous ass. those were my moms words. we talked at length about it. but you know how my mom is, after a while she gets huffy cuz she feels like she has to fix something. and im like mom were just venting. but she doesnt get it.

well now i am ready to bitch about kelly and erik. what is the stupidest thing they could do?? i really want you to think about it! because i guarantee your answer will be what they are really doing. they are..... trying... to have a baby. right now. right now while they are living in her parents basement. TRYING. TRYING TO HAVE A BABY. TRYING. TO. HAVE. A. BABY!!! agh!!! and theyre reason is because i guess its not healthy to have babies past the age of 30 (i can only assume that was pulled out of someones ass) and kellys 27 btw, but erik is 32. they are dryin up i guess. you know what i think will make an unhealthy baby? kelly and erik. any time. even ignoring any physical problem that it will definately have, can you think of all the crazy emotional problems this kid will have? erik is autistic. kelly has sculliosis. kelly is still manic depressive (or so i was told like a year ago). i dont need to list it. because they are both morons. the plan is that.. well kelly will definately have a job within the next 9 months. but NO ONE would ever hire a pregnant woman who hasnt had a job in 5 years. nooo one. what the fuck? what the fuck really??? they have to know thats gunna like put them on welfare and foodstamps. they are essentially planning to go on welfare. they are those people. GROSS. i cant defend it. if they ask me what i think... i cant defend it. i wont be able to say one nice thing. agg when i write this much it doesnt let me hit enter to make spaces anymore. agh!! well i guess ill leave you with this.... mom was telling me how kelly doesnt feel like she has a sister because of how i treat her and erik wishes he could walk in a room without me making him feel unwelcome. i was considering doing those things. until now. i really cant defend them or their behavior. they are both idiots

aw helll no

My brother in law is an idiot. seriously. After dinner today, instead of saying just thanks to my mom, he said "thanks for trying". she was really upset and i guess she told him off. she said he didnt have to eat it and he said, well its there. seriously!! and my mom doesnt like... go off on people. but she did. hes an ungreatful piece of shit. no one wants him to live here. NO ONE wants him to live here. he would be encouraged by me or my dad to leave on any given day. if i were her i wouldnt cook for him anymore. because. hes an asshole. i already thought it. last week we were talking about how he never says thank you for anything... and he finally did, and it was a thanks for trying?? who says that. it doesnt matter if you like it or not. you just dont say that. i dont always like everything my mom makes, but i would never say that. what was he trying to achieve? to hurt her feelings? ugh i want to sock him in the face.

hey yalll

well well well. im in good spirits today, i do say! i do say! not that i shouldnt be! but i am, nonetheless. nonetheless.... ahhhh. im back on the workout train. its good. im not aloud to watch dawsons creek unless i work out... or just worked out.. because dont worry yesterday i watched 6 episodes of the creek. 6. thats the sign of a good day. so season 4's almost done. and on to the college years! im excited to watch those, i dont know them as well. BUT ANYWAY thats my motivation to work out. more creek. umm what else..

today allison and i went out to lunch. it was fun we went to applebees and i ate shrimp. it was a good time. then we went want watched Pirate Radio (time #2) and i just love it! its really funny. i like everyone in it.

Tomorrow is sponge! i guess i would be seeing the cranberries today BUT i am excited to see sponge. xtina, amber, and i are going. its going to be really fun. we will drink lots of beer and rock out.

my phone sucks. i keep trying to turn it back on because i have a text in my inbox but it keeps shutting off. its done it like 5 times in a row. but if i buy a phone now, i have to pay full price and if i can hold out til february (i think) then i get really good discounts... so i guess unless it really dies ill keep it til then.

still no snow. i sort of want snow. only for about a week though. then ill be done. but i havnt even needed a coat yet. i guess i could wear a coat.. but not necessary. and my coat is just for show anyway. crystal i might talk you into going to like burlington coat factory or something so i can find a cheapie. cuz i dont really want to wear mine. i will but it doesnt really do anything besides look cute. very cute. it doesnt really feel like winter.

thanksgiving is in 2 days!! fun fun fun, no work. kelly and erik wont be here! so that means i can actually hang out downstairs if i want to! its just me mom and my dad. im happy with the situation. ive talked my mom into making a pumpkin cheesecake. ive never had one but it sounds like a good time.

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... that is all.

avon lady

Well... i dont know if i used to be this batshit crazy... but i am!! ahhhh!!! im going out of my skin and i think i know why. im in my head all the time! all the time!! like since ive become potless... i think way too much, and its getting really annoying. thinking is overrated. i know i need to do it sometimes. more than i was probably... but im an anxious girl! for real! and i dont know if i just got so used to pot that without it... im kind of a mess? i dont know! i mean im not a pothead. i dont smoke during the day. just at night! i needs it. im really just annoyed with myself. i have done so much self analyzing these past few weeks, well i just couldnt be more self aware! i know im kind of in a rut, i get that, and i have some ideas on how to work on it but i dont need to think about it ALL THE TIME but i have been. and im annoyed. im usually fine during the day, its just like at night when im hanging out by myself and watching tv and i really just... think to much. fuck that shit.

I have a funny little anticdote related to all that. At xtinas work, her friend sharon is my dealer. anyway they cant say pot at work so theyve been calling it cat turd, cuz thats kind of what it looks like. but theyve changed it. they call it buying avon and sharon is the avon lady. and she said shes workin on my avon order. so i am pleased. i want to work that into my vocabulary.

Tonight is a good night to be watching talk shows. for real. this sounds really lame but robert pattinson (you know, twilight) was on letterman... and hes a charmer! i never really thought he was all that great.. but yeah i definately wouldnt turn that down. in the bedroom. if we were to bone. BUT ANYWAY craig furguson is on next, and i love him anyway, but as a little added bonus, david duchovney is on! fox mulder in the flesh!!

UHHHHH WELL it took me a minute to get to this.. maybe because my soul is so crushed... but... the cranberries have been cancelled. i tried to find out why but i couldnt. it just happened today. im hoping it gets rescheduled but they said theyd refund money back to my credit card. gross..

but on the bright side... well i was clearly looking for something good on ticketmaster because i was really looking forward to the cranberries and i was trying to find a way to fill the void... and sponge is playing on wednesday for $12 so xtina and i are going to that. it will be fun. its the day before thanksgiving, biggest drinking day of the year. it might be a little bit of a party. im excited. i cant get too out of hand though cuz a, we have to drive home from detroit, and b... i got so drunk last year that i broke off xtinas soapdish in her tub and forgot about it AND the next day i was so hungover i couldnt eat for thanksgiving. so i may be the responsible one. we shall see. im hoping to meet a cute rock n roll boy. a really dirty one.

ah geeze

i deleted all the pictures so hopefully this loads better for certain people?? who are assholes?? certain assholes?? certain assholes who cant view pictures?? just kidding.

o gd-it. I just dont even know about life and this world. this weekends been ok so far. well i guess i havnt posted in a few days so well start simple. monday and tuesday i literally farted for the entire day and did nothing. i reanalized life both of those days. im not sure what that means but i dont know if its good or not.

uhhh wednesday crystal and i saw men who stare at goats. i really enjoyed it. george clooneys butt was in it and there were good drug scenes?? i dont know i enjoyed it. it was a silly movie. and i like silly movies. we ate red robin and i had a delicious bbq burger with little onion rings on it thats what i would eat every day if i could. thats why i need to use my eliptical. dangit.

i wish i remembered twilight better. i know i hated it.. but i was up in the clouds when i watched it. i want to watch it and know what im watching so i can judge it accurately. can all these people really love a movie thats that bad? probably...

yesterday allison and i went to the bar. i think im over stockdales. for real. i always see people i know that id rather not see.. i like was going to do a mini wave at mike p---- but i think he went out of his way not to acknowledge me. really. i wasnt going to make you have a 10 minute conversation with me asshole, i was just going to wave. i didnt even plan on using words. i feel that way about all of them. except for maybe mike s but id just rather not. hes cute but hes really just one of them. and i hate guys like that. i really do. BUT ANYWAY we left after one pitcher and we did that thing that andrew doesnt want me to talk about anymore and we played scene it. that part was fun. we played seriously for like 2 hours. we stopped moving our pieces around and we just did movie trivia.

today was ok. saturday. i worked all day. the morning i read. im reading sphere. its really good. action packed. im diggin all this michael crichton. in the 6-cl shift the allisons and i sat in the backroom for like over an hour with matthew wagle while we should have been working.... we got these like pushpops that light up but i dont want to sell them because... its an awful idea to sell light up suckers in a movie theater so weve just been eating them and we were sitting in the back room disecting the lights and we had a photo shoot with matt and he had the lights on his nipples and his dong. ill post them at some point. thats what we spent our time doing. it was really funny. agh this is stupid to explain without a picture because theres no way to really convey what i mean well..... but on the back of this steven king book, theres a picture of him in a doorway with his arms up holding the top of the door and he looks very serious. its the silliest picture ive ever seen. its become a joke at the state wayne so matt always stands in doorways and does the pose. its great. he did that for the light up pictures. ill try to send it. CRYSTAL its like in the sunny episode mac bangs the waitress the brother i forget his name but he keeps standing in doorways and it cracks me up! just watch it youll see. we also took the lights and put them in a cup and put holes in the cup and it looked like stars on the ceiling. fun.

and now.. i am drunk by myself. this is what i do. my sister and erik always eat $5 pizzas from little caesers and i never eat the leftovers but i want it sooo bad.

oh gene simmons (i somehow feel i need to clarify: kiss singer). im so dissapointed with you. im so dissapointed with you. IM SO DISSAPOINTED WITH YOU.... ah geeze.... so kiss preformed with adam lambert (that boy from american idol with all the eyeliner) and like the next day gene simmons was publicly quoted saying that adam shouldnt talk about his sexuality so much. (GAY) and i was sort of pissed. agh. was there really any reason for him to talk about it? really? no ones asking you to hang out with him. and i guess so when someone comes out that means their flaunting it? thats really all he did. i was mad. gene my love for you was just blossoming! and now.. kinda pissed. its sad. i hate to go on a rant.... but i hate everyone...

anyway, fuck you guys. im out. peace.

Thought id spice things up... sorry

Have you ever received a hickey from the last person you kissed?

Nope. that was a one time only! the amazon! ahhhh its been that long! sad! i needs to do something stat!

Will you kiss them again?

Eh i somehow doubt it.

What time did you wake up this morning?

Around 11. I watched the gilmore girls and ate a delicious pot pie.

When was the last time you cried really hard?

Eh nobody wants to know all that

Think of your last kiss, was it good?

Yeah it was actually really good. groping and everything! dangit

Is the last person you kissed attractive?

I thought so or else i wouldnt have done it! but i was also really drunk!

Have you ever held hands with the same sex?

Yeah im not sure who hasnt! i guess a lot of boys wouldnt. but whatevs!

If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
Hmm i feel like in the past i would have always said fall... but right now.. i want summer! i just want it to be hot all the time!

What was the last thing you drank?
Well im clearly drinking beer... Im doing a survey, what did you think!!!

Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
nah its all me

Have you ever kissed the last person you text messaged?
Ha wellll not with tongue!

confidence cute?
It depends how confident...  i definately hate anything that resembles cocky. so theres that.

Where is your mother?
downstairs reading

Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
Well... right now i wish xtina was here because the biggest loser is on but shes too busy shellin out sausage!  dont worry she works at hickory farms now!  thats all NOBODY ELSE. jjjjk

What made your day?
Um today was kind of ehhh.. i did very little.. BUT i did discover recently that fye sells used cds for like $5 and under so i bought 3 more today.  i got 2 more cranberries cds and a stone temple pilots cd.  AND the biggest loser is on. two people go home today!  its really serious

Do you think the last person you kissed is nice?
I wouldnt know.

Who should start the kiss, the girl or the guy?
The person who isnt me!  maybe thats why i dont do it so often!

Have you ever kissed anyone within an hour of meeting them?
Yeah its a good time

Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?
Hopefully soon!  my insides are exploding

What are you doing tomorrow?
Crystal day!!  I think were seeing Men Who Stare At Goats!  it looks like a good time.  maybe red lobster??

Do people ever call you by your last name?
No. maybe as a joke? but really, no

Did you kiss or hug anyone in the last 48 hours?
Ha wellll ive hugged my mother and my moose

When I say the word "spring", what do you think of?
the season

Name something you dislike about the day you're having?
Motha fucking boredom! im kinda goin out of my skin.  im at a loss.

what are you siting on right now?
on my beautiful couch

do you ever think these questions through?
not so much... as previously stated.... drunk. i have to be to do this

Do you understand football?
For the most part. do i like it? no

Have you told anyone you miss them lately?
yeah i believe so. thpppppppp. i stole this from heather and she talked about how her lova goes to school an hour away and how awful it is and i wanted to fart on her face.

Is there someone that can make you smile no matter what?
ha who knows

Would you ever live with any of your best friends?
absolutely!

Have you ever looked at the stars with someone?
its happened

Tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?
FUCK MY COCK. ya know... i dont know who i like. there are little likes here and there but nothing crazy serious. i liked the ms but hes seein a slooze i do believe.  sad. 

Do you swear often?
yeah id say so

How's your hair right now?
annoying. i want to cut it and dye it... but you know how i am, i really dont want to make an appointment somewhere. its wierd.  i know.

Have you ever hooked up with someone just to make someone jealous?
nah

Are you under the influence of anything at the moment?
lots of beer

What would you do if the doctor told you that you were pregnant?
Id wonder who was raping me while i was sleeping?  i was like over 10 days late i do believe on the ol p-rod.  i would have been really nervous if i was anyone else.  id clearly abort it if it was for reals.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Not in the least

Last thing that made you cry?
ugh

 Do you have a bad temper?
um i dont think so. i can get snotty. i get snotty at work sometimes. and with my family.

How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime?
i think its been 4

i dont have any pot.

Remember when Roseanne's mom came out of the closet? I havent watched roseanne in quite some time but its the later ones after they won the lottery and her moms a lesbian, darlene has a baby, and they are all rich. Its a little out of hand. And remember the last episode? Roseanne has the worst last episode of any show in the entire world. but i still love it. in the episode right now, this guy wants to make a movie about their story.

moosie is my darling. i hate that i became a cat lady. my hands are always covered in scratches now because i let her eat them and scratch them. she loves to do that. fuck.

i dont really have anything good to say. Its like 1:30 and i dont want to go to bed. and as the title indicates, i dont have any pot. its a sad way to live.

my mom hates erik because he never thanks her for anything. hes a dick. i said that hes a jerk in front of her and she agreed. my relationship with my sister has suffered more than one may have suspected. i dont know what to make of it. i literally feel disgusted when she walks into the room. i dont know that i care. it might be ok one day but i think i big part of the problem is that she comes with erik. and he smells. he had a waft of stink come off him the other day. it had a 10ft radius. I think it was 2 days ago i was watching tv in the living room and erik and her walked in and started having a conversation that started where he insinuated they should bang, then she asked if they were going to church and then bingo sunday and he didnt want to go to bingo but she was trying to guilt him into it. yep you heard it my sister is officially 80, if you didnt know that already. but anyway, the point to this was that they are really inconsiderate and dont care if they talk over what you are watching about things you dont want to hear. so i said "did you guys know that its rude to walk into a room and have a conversation when someones watching tv?" and they left. not that i was watching anything good.. but seriously who does that when there are other empty rooms to talk in? fucking rude people do that. really, youre going to talk about boning in front of me? really? not something i want to think about!

i wonder if they are annoyed with me as i am with them. im sure erik is. im not very nice to him. but hes just such an idiot. he doesnt understand sarcasm. really neither of them do. they just defend the other point and you have to say that you were kidding. i really do just avoid them most of the time.. but i still have to see them sometimes. i have noticed they dont come to my work anymore. thats nice. i think ive burned many a bridge. im really the dick in the situation but maybe they should work on being less irritating. phew im done.

To making it count

I watched Titanic last night. It was delightful. My mom put it on at like midnight and i didnt even want to stay up late.. but it was on, i didnt really have a choice.

So... dawsons creek is releasing the entire series in a box set. i wont buy it. but can you imagine all the sweet special features on there? Can you imagine it??? AGH There was like a mini creek reunion for the release of it and i was pretty mad i wasnt there. I just want to hang out with Dawson, thats all i want.

Ambers bday party is tonight! And dave is picking us up so i dont have to worry about getting extra ripped. Its at US12 and she got the back VIP room, ahaha! ive never been back there but im pretty stoked about it. Im a little nervous to meet all her friends, and its a joint birthday party so i dont really know how many people are going to be there... i may have to pre drink.. sammie and xtina are going to im sure ill be ok.

Oh what else? I went with my mom to buy a new dryer today. I had to put it on my card and shes going to pay me back. The salesman had a giant nose, i wanted to bone him in the store. he was very tall and skinny and he wore a sweater vest. he also made bad jokes. i loved all of it.

fuck all yall im peacin out.

ugh!

Ok. so. today ive had to wait TWICE for my sister to finish shitting. twice. for like 20 minutes. she brings a book in with her every time. erik does it too. erik pooped the other day for 45 minutes. i just dont buy it! thats not necessary! i dont believe that both of them really of that big of a bathroom issue that they have to spend multiple half hours a day pooping. there are 5 people living in this house! its really rude.

i feel like if i have to poop a little, i hold off until i actually have to poop and it comes out like a breeze within 5 minutes. i feel like thats just what people do. AND sometimes i feel like it might take a while so i leave and come back. BUT THERE IS NO REASON that should happen every day for 2 different adults. my conclusion is that they are both very inconsiderate. but i guess i didnt need the poop situation to figure that out.

I havnt posted anything for 10 days. SORRY LOYAL READERS. HA

Well! I dont even know where to start! I've been a drunkass. I havnt been online much. Ah my beautiful car. It makes me want to cream myself. I cant even explain what a change it is. The best thing is to like, put in a cd and have it work right away.. and soo much satellite radio is happening to my life. And i have autostart! gahhh its all just so darn great. SO DARN GREAT.

So halloween week came and went. Sad! I feel like a lot of it passed me by.. well thats not entirely true. I did a lot of fun things. No haunted house though... But i have watched SO MANY scary movies. so many. AMC this whole week has been playing nonstop horror movies and ive been watching all of them. I've put a lot of thought into why Freddy, Michael Myers, and Jason are the best movie villians ever. They are a power trio. I know thats really not anything new. Its sort of obvious. But its really evident when you watch new horror movies. I was watching the first halloween and the music is amazing! for reals!! All 3 of those have memorable music! and it builds up the movie! saw doesnt have music, and thats probably why the saw movies arent nearly as good. They play a crappy rock song because its really hardcore. ANNOYING.

I really have been drunk like all week. It's ok, i feel like this is a good week to do that. Tuesday xtina and i watched the biggest loser and we drank out fancy halloween drinks. they were sort of awful but we put them in fancy goblets. we switched to beer and had a crazy naked beatles dance party. It was really fun but I payyyed for it the next day. I tried to have crystal day but i couldnt. i was very ill. i smoked lots of pot so i could eat and slept all day long. by like 9 i was feeling kind of better and kim called so we went to the martini bar and i some how managed to drink more, not a lot though. we sang so much. i sang lightning crashes all by myself. i brought down the house. Me and kim are best friends with the kareoke lady bethany. We hug now. its funny. She said to invite her the next time we go out.

Anyway, thursday was the goth art show. It was sweet! I had a lot of fun. my boyfriend marilyn manson did not make an appearance though. Me and xtina drove seperate and we wore all black. i bought a new slutty shirt, yesss! its a boob shirt! it goes down to my bra line and i didnt wear anything under it. i liked it. i never get hit on but i got hit on kinda bad twice that night. but im getting there. anyway, everyone there was wayyyy more hardcore than i thought they would be. i thought we had to be kind of fancy.. but this was a for real hardcore goth show. there was this girl with these hooks in her neck that were bleeding and they went out into a big metal ring around her neck. and there were so many tophats. and there were taped nipples. i would have dressed crazier had i known. there was a goth granny, she had to have been at least 65. So there was this boy that started chatting me up about art. AHHHRRT. i was looking at something and he walked up and said "do you like this piece? I love how its very simple and the colors..." blah blah blah and i wanted to die. I talked to him for a few minutes but i snuck away when he turned his back and he was my stalker for the rest of the night i guess. So thats fun.

after the art show, it was like 12 so me and christina went to stocks and this boy sat next to us and asked if he could sit with us and talk about music. we let him. one of his front teeth was half broken off, we should have known. we talked for a while and it seemed ok but i guess he got continuingly sleezier (christina had to fill me in, at this point i dont remember a whole lot that was said). i invited him to the nip with us. i talked at length about how to get myself off really loudly. i cant go to the apple for a while. he prollie thought we were gunna bone later. he payed for us but didnt leave a tip so i said we had to leave one and i took the rest of his money. on the ride home he asked if he could stay over my house and that we could all snuggle. i said no and that i live with my parents, it would be wierd. he said hed sneak through a window. i said well, its on the second floor. its really dirty anyway. he kept being really persistant so i was just flat out saying no. he was rustling through xtinas back seat, presumably to steal something. when we let him out, he slammed the door without saying anything.

I was ill on friday again, pulled it together for work. Saturday (last night) was sammies party. It was really fun. we played circle of death and everyone got really silly. we had crazy photo shoots. i kinda farted out early though. i had too much drinking this week. i was bummed, but at like 12:30, my body was done.. i guess its kind of ok cuz i got there at 7, but still! i was ready to go to town. but i couldnt stay. i got really drunk, and then i kinda calmed it down, and i wasnt that drunk anymore but i could tell if i drank more id just feel sick, and i just wanted to go to bed. so im lame. xtina stayed over there until 5. whatevs.

Work all day today. fun fun fun. i felt ok today and it was everyone elses turn to feel like shit. everyone at the wiz had a hangover today.

im out of pottery. i think ima take a break and not get more for a lil bit. im gunna not drink for a lil bit either. i dont feel like im getting anything done. my room is officially disgusting me.

No plans tomorrow and its a beautiful thing. im gunna sleep in and have a cleaning day and im gunna rock out to some fun tunes. I think me and xtina are going to kareoke wednesday. its what we do now. we have a spot. ill try to get some pics. its my favorite place in the world. i dont even need to really drink to sing. like a little, but i dont need to be hammered by any means. ambers bday party is at us12 on saturday. i desperately need to have sex with someone. not that thats related to anything i just said.

would i be lame if i tried to learn guitar again? ive been thinking about it and i feel like id be able to pick up somewhere around where i left off. i think i could still read tabs and im confident i could learn easy songs right off the bat. i just could never strum. but if i practiced...? i dont know, im not a teenager anymore, i feel like id be more patient. i could maybe find a cheapie?

xtina and i were dangerously close to booking a cruise on thursday. we had the flight looked up wed get and our cabin on the ship picked out, it was going to the bahamas. oh you dont know how bad i want to go... but we ended up doing something sensible and not doing it. i could technically afford it but id have to put us both on my card and she doesnt have the money and shed have to pay me off so my credit card would have a lot on it for a while, and i just bought a car, i really dont need to be going on cruises... but i just want it! im anxious! lol i want to relax. on a beach. in the bahamas. dangit. we thought itd be a lot cheaper but it would have been about a grand each. maybe i can get allison to do it early next year or something? i would feel a lot better about it if it didnt all have to be on my card, but with xtina it kind of has to be and who knows when id get payed back. and she knew that too so thats why we didnt do it.. vegas is freakishly cheap in december/january but it actually gets pretty cold. but you can get hotels on the strip for $25. probably because its cold. BUT we could see cirque de solei! i dunno. i think were gunna do a mini trip in december for her birthday.

Yesterday i carved a marilyn manson pumpkin and a freddy kruger pumpkin.

halloween pickies

pickies deleted!!

There will be more! I still need to post a car picture. Woopsies. I have a lot of cool pictures in my new camera that i havnt loaded. I would say soon but I guess I cant promise that. BUT heres some i stole from sams myspace

new car!!

yay im excited! I'll be getting a new car either tomorrow or monday! We have to wait for the color I want to get to the lot. Its carbon black metallic. it has shimmerys! My color choices were very limited. It was between that, dark blue (kinda ugly), gold, and white. My choice was obvious. I had to buy a GM because i get $1500 off from my dad, so in my price range it was was either a G6(what im getting) or a cobalt. I'm not gunna lie its not like the fanciest looking car,but its cute. It has sooo much stuff! It has satelite radio, cruise control, onstar, automatic doors and windows and auto start. I drove one and it was sooo much nicer than my car. I cant even talk about it... ANNND get this, so my car's trade in value is $300. Yikeeeesss.

Im so pumped! I want it now. It was soo sammmoooth to drive. I'll miss my sunfire but.. yay new car!

What happened yesterday? It was crystal day, we saw paranormal activity. It was good. It would have been better if the back row wasnt full of the kind of black people that dont shut up during horror movies. They kept laughing at scary parts and they made fart noises and they would go SHIT and DAMN. i hated them. I wanted to say something so bad. They didnt shut up. The movie was good though, it was scary. It was like a blair witch documentary style about ghosties.

After Crystal day, I went to Silkys with Kim and we sang some more hot hits. Runaway Train happened, it was magical. I also did eve6 and better than ezra and sponge. I LOVE IT!!

There is never a time when i dont wish i was boning Rose McGowan.

Hey guys!!

I dont remember what i blogged last but im sure i have good things to say! FOR INSTANCE, on Monday, xtina came over and we went out to buy our costumes. THEY WERE OUT OF THE BANANA!!! She said the target by her has the banana, but i swear to god (that means a lot!), if shes not a banana, ima punch somebody in the face. No shell get it. Im still gunna be a really cool gorilla. Still undecided on the mask issue. It came with a mask. I think im against it though. I'll have an ape body with a Carrie head? I might paint my face up a little (not black face, just a little), might do my hair up fun. I was thinkin a double bun like gwen steffani. who knows! i just know that i cant drink very well with a giant mask on! it came with gloves though and ill prollie try to rock those out as much as i can. they probably arent good for drinking either but well see!! I also bought its always sunny in philadelphia season 4. theres an episode all about poop. its amazing.

Anyway, afterwords, we wanted some boozies so we went to stocks. I guess they have dollar beers on monday.. and they had champagne of beers! i was excited about that. Cassie M. and her friend Stacy came up and they sat with us and we got realll silly. We got these shots called oatmeal cookies and they were really good! Then we decided we needed to sing so we went to Rockstarz (it used to be Jamies!) and it was really fun! Xtina and I sang Poison by Alice Cooper and we did Sonny and Cher. The dj was making people do kareoke roulette, so stacy and i did it and we did alanis morisette, easy! i was hoping wed get something kind of outta hand! xtina was hitting on this cute rock n roll boy all night and then he left without saying bye.. THEN the kareoke man asked her for her number and she gave it to him because shes an idiot (not cute at all.. and they didnt talk at all. it was wierd) and he followed us out to the car. I dropped a whole bunch of shit out of my purse and he picked it up. That was nice. then they made out and i waited in the car. hangovers the next day! wooo!

Yesterday (hangover day) i wasnt too bad. I went on a walk BY MYSELF (whaa? i know) and i brought my litttle ipod shuffle and jammed out to some toons. i did the mile at attwood and then walked around a while. ima say i did about 2 miles. im ok with that. maybe ill walk more? its easier than elipticaling. or maybe ill do both! who knows. that will probably never happen... it was actually really nice out yesterday, not to cold. It was effing sunny, and when i was about done with mile #1 it started raining but it went away. so things got wet. whatevs.

Still no car. I had to get all my check stubs from the rec and from shafer. i have them from the rec but i think shafeys assistant forgot. ill have to bug her.

today is crystal day. im freakishly hungry! im like sooo hungry. i had a huge #2 earlier and i think thats partially responsible. ive also been up like 3 hours, so theres that. i need to buy some red and black for when i meet marilyn manson. i need black pants anyway and maybe ill find a fun shirt to wear. i need to be a cheapo about it though.

Gotta ticket for a runaway train, like a madman laughin at the rain, a little outta touch a little insane, its just easier then dealing with the pain!

I'm obsessed with soul asylum.

Ive had the flu for about a week. its been really fun. I finally feel like me again and its beautiful. I didn't die. I hope it was swine flu. That would be funny. Maybe i'll just tell people it was.

2 nights ago I watched this movie called Trick 'R Treat... and it was insane. I was grassed up the first time i watched in and.. I was really scared.. like really scared! And i had it on demand so i watched it again last night and it was still really scary without the pottery! I tried to record it but im an idiot! It said it was recording but i dont know if you need to do something when you stop it?? My dad knows how. But I wanted that one! It was really graphic. It killed a lot of kids and I like that. There was a crazy scene with Marilyn Manson playing in the background and all these girls were at an outside small party and they got naked and then they pulled off their skin and they were werewolfs and they ate everybody and i loved it. ahhhhh. I miss scary movies. i didnt watch too many for a while there.

I hope target has my gorilla costume still cuz im buyin it today! i needs it! nothing else will do! im pumped!!

I was out of business most of this week, no good stories! I worked. thats cool. TTYLLLL

This is what i do in my spare time. You better love it! I stole jennys titanic picture idea.. and probably did a worse job.

Readers Beware!

The summer between 7th and 8th grade, all me and sam did was write plays and reenact them for my parents. We did this with a girl named Heather who we only hung out with for one summer. I hope you're ready for whats about to happen.
(I'm gunna type how i wrote it, i expect many misspellings)

The 3 Musketeerettes
Queen-Carrie
Gabriella- Carrie
Theodosia- Heather
Catalina-Samantha

We Walk in
Gabriella-It's not fair, why should they get all the credit?
Theadosia- I know, all the musketeers do is protect the king. Isn't the queen just as important?
Catalina- Well I think so, yet do you ever hear someone mentioning the musketeerettes?
Gabriella and Theadosia- No!

(I knock foot 3 times)

Theadosia- The mails here!
Catalina- I'll get it (leave, come back with mail) It's from the queen!
(Sam hands to me)
Gabriella- (opens is)(moves eyes over it and mumbles it to myself) Oh my gosh!
Theadosia- let me see that. (reads letter)
Catalina- Oh my gosh, only one of us? I'll do it
Gabriella- no me!
Theadosia- No, she'd rather have me!
All of us- (We all talk at once and argue about who should do it)
Gabriella- Theadosia, Catalina, Were acting like spoiled children, shut up!
Catalina- Why don't you, Gabriells!
Theadosia- Yeah!
Gabriella- Come one, lets just talk about it. Does it say how we choose?

Everyone grabs at letter and it rips.

Theadosia- Now look what you guys did?
All- Argue about it
Catalina- Cant we put it back together?
Gabriella- Yeah, ok. (we put it back together) It says we have to choose amongst ourselves.
Catalina- One of you can do it, because I don't want to ruin our friendship.
Gabriella- Well I will. (pulls out knife)
(fights)

G- I stab T in arm
T-T kills me
C- I don't even want to do it now.

Leave

Queen- Hello. I see you've chosen one. (other walks in) or maybe not
T- Well, your majesty, we decided we can't choose
Q- Well, I have no choice but to take all 3 of you.
T- Well, I'm sorry, but, I kill...
C-She climbed the biggest mountain! It was really amazing. Well Gabriella has a rare....
T- Disease with no cure! No one can see her
Q- Well, I'm sorry to hear that, the two of you will be fine.
C- When do we start?

Wow! I can honestly say i didnt read it though before I typed it. I hope yall loved it. That really has a message! We wrote that when we were like 12.. clearly too old

Great Ape

Yayyyyy at the state wayne i only have to work until 4 on halloween! We are only showing one set of movies! I'm pretty excited about this.. AND sams going to have a party, and she wasnt before... SO I'm pretty sure i will be going as a gorilla and christina will be my banana. I'm really excited about it. I'm undecided about a mask. I dont think I wanna do that. I think I may just have an ape body. The costume I want is really cool, its furry and it has ape nipples. maybe i could get just like an eyemask? I dont want a big stupid rubber mask. Itll be funny.

Oh halloween. My list of things to do is basically entirely incomplete! Ive done nothing! NOTHING! Oh i guess thats not entirely true, i got the spooky drink and the ghoul hand is frozen in my freezer at this very moment. But thats all. I think a haunted house is in the near future. Did i mention on here that xtina went to halloweekends and only made it on 3 rides during 10 hours? They didnt even get it any haunted houses. Isnt that lame? Ive always wanted to go but i bet its always pretty busy. i can go to haunted houses without cedar point. Im excited to carve a pumpkin. We decorated the state wayne, its very festive.

SOOO crystal, i missed the new always sunny, but the one they played after it.. the mac bangs the waitress... is amazing! i think ive seen it before but i just couldnt even handle it this evening. SOOOO goood. I want to buy all the seasons too! ahhhh!!!

Eff your mom

Ughhh. I had such fun plans for today! Christina and i were going to drink all day and see a movie AND watch the biggest loser. I was also going to buy a new vibe!! Damnit! I woke up today and was gunna call andrew and i vomited first which was really fun, then i felt a little better, taked to the al, farted a few times, and then i literally slept until 5pm. yeah. 5. that happened. i feel a little better, i ate some pringles, drank some water. Im still in bed though. its like 6:30. awsome. Xtina may or may not come over for the biggest loser... But we were gunna drink the punch with the scary hand in it. i even froze the hand! AHHH! hopefully ill feel better by tomorrow. i dont have a fever or anything...

I had about a million crazy unrelated dreams. i had a dream that me and some people were in california and we were on this hill by the ocean and there was an alligator and some girl fell on it. thats what i think about.

Ugh so remember when i said i joined all these contests? i think they were mostly legit but usweekly said i owed them like $50 so i cancelled and said i wouldnt pay it. they dont have my credit card info so i dont think they can really do anything. eff that. that was the one to hawaii. i dont think any of the other contests were from magazines so hopefully i will go SOMEWHERE! ahhhh ill end up with a vacation to denmark. i really have no interest in going to denmark. im not sure i can think of anywhere id rather go less than denmark.

moo and i boned earlier today. it was magical. she jumped on top of bubba and rode him for a second and i was pretty happy about it

i watched zombieland for the second time yesterday. amazing. i love it.

796!

Yayy dont worry my credit score is 796. Im pretty happy with that. If I can get check stubs from shafer for the last two months, then i think i may buy a new car on thursday! if not then i have to wait for like 2 months and make copies of them! its wierd cuz he writes personal checks so i dont really know how it works! but I AM getting a new car. ive decided. i can do it and its gunna go down. im sick of my stupid car and i dont want to deal with it in the winter.. my heat will work and my cd player will work! i wannnnt it! im looking at a pontiac g5 and i can get a 2009 for like 15,000, and its gm so i get about a grand off from my dad, and i also will get some money back from my sunfire, not a lot though. Ill be a little sad to see it go but im sooo ready for a new car.

Pottery Barn

The day has come. It has finally come. Someone lost pottery at the State Wayne, and Allison found it!! AHhh! Theres like $40 worth. So the next day, dont worry, someone came looking for it. He was really persistant about finding his "medical marijuana". He came back like 3 times that day and said the janitor must have taken it. AA felt bad, but I didnt. I was annoyed that he kept talking. If it really is medical marijuana, ive heard its super strong, so i can only hope so!

Saturday we had my fake bday party. It was okay. Not as fun as id hoped! I dont know! We went to stockys and then US 12, and i just wasnt feelin the 12! Not at all! The music was all awful, worse than normal.. and i dont know, i guess i didnt feel that dancy. Amber brought a friend and she dryhumped some guy all night. I ended up getting REALLY trashed. REALLY REALLY trashed. there are a lot of things i dont really remember. i had to be reminded that i danced with some dirt but i dont even know what he looked like, i dont think i even really looked at him at the time. I kind of left quick, no one really wants to dance with dirts and us12, nothing good can come from that... I dunno, i was silly for a while, we danced a bit. Everyone left but me sam and allison and we stopped back at stockdales cuz the some of that crazy old lewis clan and jill were over there. dont worry i made an ass of myself. i was ok for a bit but i kinda had a spazz and i was THAT GIRL that starts sobbing at the bar. they all saw it. it was embarrassing. fuck my life. it was an ok night, i think id much rather be at silkys all the time. The freak out was right at the end of the night, so thats kind of what i left with. thats how i remember the evening. cool!

I just entered literally 10 vacation contests! lets see if i remember! Hawaii,Carribean Cruise, LA, Denmark, China Cruise, Disney world... Wow is that really all i remember? I really want to go somewhere... but i need a car and i guess im going to put that first... even though i just want to do everything!

Dissapearing warts??

A few important things need to be discussed.. namely.. so Allison Gardiner is going to be in an art show and there is a guest artist... marilyn manson! And word on the street is that he may attend, SOOOO im gunna go with the allisons and have butt sex with marilyn manson, for everyone whos intersted. AHAHAHA i can only hope! how cool would i be if i had a picture with marilyn manson?? sooo cool! AND say my boyfriend doesnt show up.. then, i will at least get to see his carazzzy art and there will be ABSYNTHE TASTING? whaaa? you heard me! isnt that crazy? im stoked! you have to wear red and black! so i will! and me and marilyn manson are gunna be dating soon, so i wont talk to either of you. sluts.

What else? so ive had these warts on my feet, they started appearing like 6 years ago. Theyre just lil plantars warts, but they spread kind of hardcore, like i had about 10... but they are mysteriously going away and im not going to ask questions! like they are half gone already and the remaining few are faint at best! at best! im pumped! i did so much to get rid of them but nothing worked! i switched body washes, maybe thats it??? i dont know but i love it. i was planning on getting rid of them soon cuz im losing my health insurance in january, but it looks like i wont have to!

Im having my 3 week late bday party tomorrow! it will be fun! xtina cant come but i will live. id invite you crystal but you hate all my friends! its true! slut! im okay with it. so it will be small. annnyway it should be fun. im gunna be silly.

i havnt talked to jessica in months! she texted a while ago and i ignored it. im a jerk.

i got the cranberries tickets in the mail and they are from livenation and they are really big. they are like double the regular size.

im considering purchasing a new car inthe near future. mines being silly and i dont want to put any serious money into it... and i want satelite radio.

i dont like you.

Get out of my dreams! Get into my car!

Yesterday was a really good day!! yayyy! It started off with crystal day, it was a good time. We ate some delicious Red Robin and she applyed for a house loan and the little loan man said shed definately get it, so thats coool.... AND i bought 3 shirts! ahhhh! Im outtta controllll! 2 were on sale but it was at macys so that really doesnt mean anything.... and there was this purple coat i really want that i talked myself out of at the time but i need a new coat and im going to keep thinking about it until i buy it... BUT it was $200 and i dont really want to do that.. so who knows... We saw Zombieland and it was amazing! It was everything i could have wanted! It was really gory and it was funny AND bill murray was in it dressed like a zombie but he wasnt and he smoked pot with them and then someone shot him cuz they thought he was a zombie. it was amazing. What else? Oh we bought crazy meijer sushi which seemed like a good idea but... ehhh im not feeling so great today and i did drink last night but... i kind of blame the sushi. it wasnt good. i was drunk and stoned and it still wasnt good. you know something is absolute shit if youre stoned and you dont want to eat it. dangit..

After crystal day, kimberly called ( she wants to be called michelle now. its her middle name. i dont like it) and wanted to go out. We wanted to find somewhere new... and we found a gold mine! its amazing! its called slinkys and its in dearborn.. when we were talking about where we wanted to go, kim was hungry and i wanted to eat, we discussed kareoke, and i really wanted fancy drinks. ... annnnd SLINKYS HAD IT ALL!!! AHHH! its a martini bar that does kareoke wednesdays and has FREE CONEYS!! WHAAAA???? I couldnt even handle all the fun drinks they had. I had a rasberry truffle drink that made me want to cream my pants... and they were only like $5.50. AND no one was there so we just kept singing and the kareoke lady loved us and danced with us. there was only one other person who sang and he loved it too. it was great. allison and her ICP FRIEND came and joined us. her friend was nice but he had awful clothes and said jason is better than freddy, so andrew youd probably like him. ANNYWAY ommmygod i finally sang by myself and it was good! like i sang like shit and it didnt matter! ima go through what we did! OK first me and kim did the cars "just what i needed" and a whole new world together, and by myself i did bullet with butterfly wings, some stone temple pilots, GET OUUUTTA MY DREAMS GET INTO MY CAR, we all did with a little help from my friends..i feel like theres more! she didnt even have a book cuz she had so much on her computer, she had 70,000 songs, she said.... wooooooooooooo i think slinkys might be the new spot. they have dancing thursday- saturday and me and allison might go again tonight! yeah i said it!

Saturday were doing a little belated bday party cuz i never went out for it, its gunna be small.. i think just me, sam, amber, kim, and maybe allison are going. no xtina! sad, shes goin to halloweekends.

I just got sam the coolest thing. we always get eachother a lil somethin on bdays, and i kinda did the best thing anyone has ever done for anyone... i put us on m&m's!! ahhh!!! theres one thats just her as gene simmons, and the other picture is all of us as kiss, and the backs say SHOUT IT OUT LOUD and YOU GOT THE BEST!!! im pumped. i wanna buy fun m&ms all the time now. they kind of pricey for m&ms but theyre just so cool!!

!!!banana!!!

So earlier today xtina and i went to target and we were looking at costumes. There was a giant banana and a giant gorilla. We said we should be a banana and a gorilla and she tried on the banana and this smooth black guy in a suit walks by and stops. he hit on xtina while she was a giant banana and he gave her her card. it was amazing. he was really persistant about getting her number.

Oo we both bought crazy halloween drink mixes, im really excited to drink them. she got scary cosmopolitans that are frozen and it came with a BLOW UP CAULDRON to but the drinks in. i got a super scary punch that comes with a hand that floats in it. I also got Mallrats... and Billy Madison and Happy Gilmore came together for $12 so i had to get it. There was no choice!

The best lineup is on right now. There was an hour of scrubs and now there is an hour of south park. its amazing. i couldnt imagine anything better.

Earlier this evening, moo was dragging her butt on the floor. I secretly thought it was darling but then she left a poop smeer on the carpet and she was dropping little poop pieces and it was all stuck in her butt. we had to wash it like roscoe! ahhhhH!!

AHH!

Ok so i just watched the trailer for the new freddy movie... and it looks like it could be amazing!! im so excited! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B-tSvrkKx2Y crystal watch, im gunna make you go with me. i was really skeptical... but it looks awesome! im pumped!

I worked all day again. Im wearing a sparkly headband i stole from sam for kiss and i think i need to buy some because i kinda think im rockin it out. i want to keep this one. maybe shell forget i have it?

i guess thats it. i was just really excited about the freddy.

Well!

I answered the question on my own that i asked in my last bloggerrr. He goes "doyouwannacomeover,canyoucomeover,whenwillyoucomeover" really fast and at the time it was really funny. ima try to find it on youtube. i remember it was there before cuz i loved it so much.

Today. was. stupid. Today was a stupid, pointless day. I woke up early because there was a bday party at the wiz and i had to be there at 10:30, AND dont worry cranberries tickets went on sale at 10 so important things were going on. Anyway, i guess that all happened without a hitch.. BUT THEN.. ok you know how they do those stupid cancer runs through wayne every year? Its like right through my neighborhood, literally on my street. I had to wait for runners to pull out of my driveway. i went to take winslow to rec center to pick up balloons but there were tons of runners so i went to annapolis but it was blocked off so i had to turn around and go to richard with minimal runners. i took it to howe and howe had police directing traffic and it took 5-10 MINUTES to get into the rec center parking lot because they wouldnt stop the runners, you had to wait for gaps. I finally got in and JRUDD never told them to blow up the stupid balloons so i had to wait another 10 min for that, and then it took like 5 to exit the parking lot. ANNOYING. and then AND THEN.. im supposed to meet these people at 10:30, i was late because of all that other crap and they still werent there. a pizza guy they called came at 11:15 for their party and waited for like 15 min and left. they never came. i called and they didnt call back. BITCHES. and then i worked a double. it was a stupid 14 hour day. i guess that was the worst of it but it was really FUCKING ANNOYING. Oh and ps mi ave was closed off cuz someone was trying to kill themselves off the train tracks over mi ave by newburg? i dont know if they succeeded. i can only hope.

um im in the downstairs computer room and a cat just pooped. it smells like hardcore poop. i blame one of kellys stupid cats. they are getting integrated into the house. i dont like them. one of them growls when you pet it.

another reason my day sucked is cuz i ran out of tampons and i dont want to buy more so im using state wayne tampons and a pad in case cuz the pons suck, and i bled all over my underwear. so thats cool. and it feels like im wearing a full diaper. dangit.

Whats good thats going on? I know i mentioned it up there, but yeah, cranberries! im really excited. i got main floor and its at the filmore. Evverythings stinky, stinky without you!

i saw gamer. it was fun. there were a lot of boobs in it. it was cheesy and i loved all the cheese. there was like an important end scene where the main guy is about to kill the bad guy but the bad guy has all these cronies and he controls their minds so he has them do a dance sequence while good guy kills them. it loved it. they snapped their fingers.

at the wizzy we have a whole bunch of orphan posters and at the top it says "there's something wrong with esther" so we cut it off and hung it over the door.

whoooaa i just looked in the cat litter and there is a very serious poop in there. i can tell why it stinks. its totally a kelly cat poop. my cats are nice and they cover it up so it doesnt smell but hers like to stink up the place. they are cunts. no one is nice. fuck you. ummm.

tata for now

UMMM

im here for one thing and one thing only, i have a question. andrew, im counting on you for this. remember stay alive, that movie about the killer video game with frankie muniz from malcom in the middle? in the biggining, theres a nerd playing the game and he gets a phone call from his friend, says something absolutly insane, hangs up and then dies. what did he say that was sooo crazy? i remember we like rewatched it because it was so funny, and i cant remember what he said. he was like inviting the friend over to play the game with him, and one of them says the funniest thing ive ever heard. does this ring a bell? i need to know!

Dawwwgy

Today i bought 2 things that really signify who i am as a person.. and i think they may be the two things i buy the most in life... clearly batteries for my vibrator and booze. that is my life. and i think i may be really happy with674,k ,mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn that. moo moo walked on the keyboard, i thought id leave her input. i also bought her a rooster hat for halloween but i havnt successfully gotten it on her yet. i think i will be able to when shes reallll sleepy. BTW half of my bacardi is already gone! ahhh! how do i do it???

Tomorrow my mom and i are going to a baseball game, the twins are playin clearly. it will be fun, the tigers might win the pennant (? i think?) and if they do then its kind of a big deal i guess so everyone will be crazy. stuff might explode, i dont know. then im makin xtina go on a bar night with me cuz i have the night off.

So earlier today.. me and crystal were comparing my sister to roscoe, my white cat, and i think its pretty accurate. they both hunch over and they both are kind of smelly and greasy. its the truth! its the truth and im not afraid to say it! and anyway, today my mom was talking about how erik loves to take care of roscoe and i thought it was funny because roscoe and kelly are both needy and smelly. does anyone get it???? i laughed. Todays an anti kelly day. shes needy and she always wants someone to pity her and im kinda over it. she sits there all hunched over and like making faces and everyones always asking whats wrong and she always falls asleep in the living room and everyone has to force her to bed and erik like puts and arm around her to carry her down.. and im just like, if everyone stopped humoring her, maybe shed stop doing it. i hate it! blahhhhhhhhhhhhh. my moms on the same page. i was glad.

Another purchase today was strawberry milkshake whoppers. ive always wondered what those are like and the conclusion isss EHHHH. they alright. i thought they would change the middle part to be like strawberry but its the same, they just changed the outside. not something id do again!

i think moo just sipped some of my boozies. she looked displeased. im obsessed with my cat! dangit! im not aloud to write about her ever agian. this is really all i have to say anyway. night lovas!! craig furgusons on!he has a new opening sequence! does he really sing it??

well!

a few things! first and foremost... this will be bad because i am stoned. FIRST AND FOREMOST! . then. ok so my dads not dead. he had an almost heart attack. so who knows. hes still in the hospital but i dont think its a big deal.

anyway.. so moose is my girlfriend. she plays coy all day, but when shes in my room, we are lovas and we rub faces. she has a million bad nicknames already. she is moosie (obv), moo , moo moo, moo cow, moomer... along those lines. its amazing. shes milady.

uhhh.. i feel like i had more! but that may not be true! today was great, i basically did nothing. i did laundry... and i watched hes just not that into you with my mother. she liked it. so thats fun.

IM OUT

well i just dont know what to think!

I guess this is a sort of serious post, sorry! this is my outlet! my outlet!

so i went downstairs at like 11:30pmish and the tv was on and all the lights were on and the door was unlocked but my parents were no where to be found and the car was gone. wierd for the martin household. i went downstairs to see if kelly knew and all i saw was erik sleeping in his briefs with the light on so i went back upstairs.

Anyway i go back down around 1am and kelly is outside smoking and i go KelLLlLllyyYyY in a spooky ghost voice from the window and she screamed a scream of genuine terror. my sisters a spaz. and i asked where mom and dad were and she said they were at the hospital (always! i kinda figured but i thought it was my sister having a crazy kelly hospital emergency) cuz my dad is having irregular heartbeats. So mom just called kelly and shes coming home and dad is getting admitted to downtown detroit with like some kind of heart arrhithmea (which tells me nothing, because thats what irregular heartbeats mean anyway) so like.. do they think hes having a heart attack or hes dying or what?? i kinda worry about my parents sometimes because they are both like candidates for heart attacks, they both big mid 50s yadiyada. So what am i supposed to be thinking about this?

i feel like i should be more concerned than i am. im staying up i guess cuz i wanna know whats going on... but my moms coming home soon and shell probably be upset.. what do i do with that? if shes upset that probably means i should be too... agh. i dont know! i dont want to deal with crying! i will stand awkwardly not crying while they are crying. i mean its probably serious if hes getting admitted downtown. so there that is. i dont know why i felt like blogging this. its a downer. but its on my mind! so there you go

Soooo this is what we do in our spare time... AHHHH!! KISS!! YOU WANTED THE BEST, YOU GOT THE BEST!!

OK ima try to tell as much as i can without being obnoxious! but this was like the best night of my life! lol! Ok.. so we get there were pumped were walkin up AND NO ONE ELSE HAS THEIR FACES PAINTED! Ok thats not entirely true, there were a few, but we were literally the only people I saw who had the whole band. So were outside of the building and people are filming things and they were filming like only one band member BUT WE HAD 4 so they came to us and we were on channel 4 news! yay sue saw it! so anyway we go in... and we were basically famous, like i know what it feels like now. We didnt know how crazy it would be at first (we heard you werent even allowed to bring cameras so none of us did!) but pretty soon after we get in there this guy wants his picture with us and he basically groped me and aprils boobs.. but it was all padding, little did he know. But the guy who took our picture with him took pictures of us seperately and gave us his card so we could get them later (??). Anyway... i dont want to go on at length about how cool everyone thought we were... but i literally think like 50 people took pictures of/with us and we were told we are DEFINATELY GOING TO BE IN REAL DETROIT! YAY!! so i have to get one on thursday! ill keep you posted! AND they were filming the live dvd there and we got interviewed a few times and the cameras filming were like right by us so we have to be on it! It was fucked up! like it was seriously the coolest thing weve ever done. i felt like a starrrr!

Anyway the actual concert was fucking AWESOME! WOOO KISSS!! Hahaha like seriously! ok so buckcherry opened and they were kind of amazing. the singer was smokin hot, hes a skinny boy with lots of tattoos and his pants were so tight and low but i never saw any crack. i dont know, thats all there is to them, but they were really fun.

Kiss comes on and theres fire everywhere and.. i dont even know! Theyre soo cool! gene simmons had all the blood come out of his mouth and he flew to the top of the stage and sang a song up there. The Star child (refer to christinas picture) is kinda the star of kiss though! who knew! he flew back to where we were (we had main floor but we were kinda in the back half) onto this platform and played LOVVVEGUNNNN WHOOAAA. it was soo good! We were in the confetti zone (ive never been hit by the confetti, this was a dream of mine) and it was everywhere. so much fire and crazy stuff. the drums spun in circles. it was insane. the whole group around us were from the graduating class of 88 and they were having a mini reunion at the kiss concert and we were all drunk with them, it was funny. they loved us. they kept taking pics of us and we kept having to pose and i just loved it! im not over how cool we were, like seriously, someone would be taking a picture and then other people would get in on it! feck!

Anyway, i bought a flippin awesome kiss shirt, it says kiss in rhinestones, xtina took it though! shes a slut! ill prolly get it tuesday during the biggest loser. SOOO after kiss we all went to stockdales in full makeup, it was really fun. eric lang and the ms were all there. the dj loved us and played some kiss. me and ms hug a lot now but i dont think well ever bone. dangit. he did have his arm around me when we were talking though! i just want it! feckkkkkkkkkkkkk. as it turned out drinking more wasnt the best idea, april drove us back to sams and i drove home from there which i dont remember at all. dont remember getting into bed or like taking out contacts.. but it all happened.

saturday i was supposed to work a double but i had to leave at 3:30, i was vomiting in the workplace. dangit. it was ok.. i went home and OLD SCHOOL and WEDDING CRASHERS were on in a row.. and then, NEVER BEEN KISSED. it was a good day for movies. i was cool. as it turns out, the best thing you can do when youre hung over is smoke some doobies cuz you forget how sick you feel and you can actually eat and not throw it back up. its nice to call off now cuz allison is managing now and shell actually cover.

niagara falls pics soon! maybe!

THE RETURN OF KISS!!

IM A WRITER!!

So Niagara Falls! yeah!! It was pretty amazing. I had a really good time. We did every fun dorky thing you could do. I think i gained maybe 17 pounds from all the shit we ate... but then again, just so you know, in like an overnight period, we used half a role of toilet paper. we just kept pooping! so much pooping! But we ate at the rainforest cafe, it was really fun, there were big fishtanks and fake monkeys that moved around every 10 min or something. AND fake thunderstorms. we also ate at the hard rock cafe. were really cool.

So what crap did we do>? Clearly maid of the mist. Xtinas fucking poncho! We were tipsy on it and her poncho just kept flying everywhere and she was the only one who couldnt keep a handle on it. It was soooooooo funny. she was literally the only person who was like losing thier poncho. it was flying off. i loved it. but it was really pretty. we didnt do the behind the falls. one day!!

We got this card that let you go to 7 places for $30, and each place cost about $10, so it was good. We went to: The Hollywood wax museum, glo golf, a big ferris wheel, ripleys believe it or not, 5 midway tokens... the other 2 need to be explained! Ok so it was unexpected and amazing, but there was this 3d ghost adventure and it was a ride. you got in these little cars and put on 3d glasses and you got a gun and you shot all these targets and super scary ghosts jumped out at you! it was the coolest thing ive ever done! The other thing was this fx theater, im not totally sure how i felt about it. i guess it was fun, but it was like a little movie and all the seats were on this moving platform and it moved with the movie. it was Journey to the center of the earth. It was fun for the most part but some of it was just jerky and it hurt. but im glad we did it. WE ALSO dominated the midway games. I fucking loved it. I love arcades. like this was amazing. i put in $20 and we got 70 tokens and most of the games were like 2 tokens and... i dont know, it was really fun. there were a lot of those games where you like shoot water at a target and you race the other person.. loved all of it. i did the thing too where you swing the hammer on the thing and it says how strong you are?? You know, the lights go up that big pole depending how hard you swing it.. anyway, im not very strong and i even did the women/kids button. because women are weak like small children. but its true!! i failed. But whatevs, i got like 150 tickets and i got a shotglass with them.

What else? Our hotel was attatched to the casino and we did a lil gambling. i put in $40 and came out with $15. not too bad. i won like $30 at one point but i lost all of it, clearly. OOO AND on day 2 we went to the worlds largest indoor aviary! it was probably my favorite thing we did.
First when you go on theres this amphibean area and i got to hold a lil alligator!! it was really cool! i have a picture, ill post it later. I could have held a snake but we were there when they were eating and i didnt want to hold a hungry snake. ...Then theres a nocturnal area and there were lots of bats and stuff. the bats were actually up and flying around, they were really cute. The big aviary part was amazing. it was all free flying birds, no cages, and there were some sweet birds, like big parrots and tucans. it was huge. theres no way i can convey how awesome it was. it was like 3 levels you go down and there was a waterfall. i loved it.

All in all, it was really fun. i want to go back more! its like a 5 hour drive but it didnt seem that bad. i spent far two much for like a day.. but whatever, we did like everything you could do. it was really fun. It got dark on the way home, and it was kinda scary because there werent any streetlights and we saw like 4 deer. I was on deer duty but you couldnt really see when it got really dark. scary! it felt like tawas. except.. not really. and the border guard gave us a hard time, i think he thought we were lying. he was a dick. i showed him a picture so he wouldnt make us get out so they could search. i think that was coming next. whatever!!! i dont know why they want to taint everyones fun time with their tudes! thpppp!

Today was crystal day. i bought so much shit. Dangit. i bought a charger for this phone someone lost at the state wayne that im taking. no one claimed it, its minnnnee. its green and beautiful and it has a keyboard. i think ima switch my card over tomorrow in it.

Pee wee herman was on jaY Leno.. not paul ruebens, pee wee herman. it was a little creepy and not funny. he brought out a salad bar and made salads. he didnt look old though.

KISS IS ON FRIDAY!!! I have to get some facepaint! and glitter hairspray!!

wooohooo

look how pretty april is!!

Yay im excited!! So yeah we upgraded the cleveland idea to Niagara Falls! Yayyy isnt that fun?? Im pumped! Its only for 2 days and our hotel is atatched to a casino and the hard rock cafe and our room has a fireplace and a giant view of the falls! i love it! i wanna go now. i dont want to work, i just want to be there. were gunna go on the maid of the mist and were gunna go to wax museums and the plan is to try to maintain a nice level of drunk, which i think we can do. THERES DINOSAUR THEMED PUTT PUTT! I mean i dont know what else i need to say. im readddy. ill take far two many pictures for like an overnight trip. so look forward to that.

there was a spider on my computer screen a few minutes ago, it was terrifying.

Tiny moose is ok. she hid the first day after she was fixed but shes silly again. shes a little snuggles. i want to anally rape her.

kim xtina and i went to the bar last night and talked about the amazing 3 way we would have. none of us ruled it out. it was a funny conversation. we walked home and i fell down and i have a scrape on my arm.

thats about all i have to say.

kujos tattoo... wow

First real bloggyspot post

I dont really have anything to say! I just wanted to make a first posty! SOOO

Moosie is getting fixed right now! i hope shes ok! i loves her, shes my darling!

OO And the spice girls just to mix it up

9/9

Dont worry, im watching the real world. i like it more than i should. this was a good season!!SOoooooo i basically feel like a beached whale. I just saw the worlds least flattering picture of me. I basically looked like rosie o donnel. i need to work out hard core!!!!!! ahhh! that eliptical is happening! i need it! fart! itll help me get through the creek episodes! only two episodes have happened since mr lewis left. i miss it!

I went to the doctor and i have a yeast infection, i guess. she looked at my vag (that was my first time ever!!) and it was awkward. i forgot to tell her aunt flow was in town and so my tampon string is hanging out AND she goes, well i can tell youre keeping clean, theres some residual toilet tissue in here. yeah there was toilet paper stuck in my vag. Did she really need to tell me? i think i could have gone without knowing. without knowing about the toilet paper in my vag. but i guess nothing to crazy was going on down there, so thats good. i have a wierd bump but she said it was ok, i wasnt from herpes. so thats good.

I bought a really cute new camera!! its green (clearly) and a lot nicer than my other one AND it takes pictures a lot faster. im excited to take it to fun things. my old camera went to all kinds of fun places!

I saw taking woodstock and i LOVED IT. it was soooo good. there was a lot of penis in it. there was vag in it too. just a lot of nakedness and drug use. i loved it. it made me want to be a hippy so bad. me and christina talked extensively about how we wish we were hippies and ways we can maybe make that happen now, ha but i dont think itll work to well. we came back from the movie and drank some HOEGAARDEN (yeah thats a beer) and smoked a jizzy and had profound thought. i loved it. we felt kinda smart at the time.Aiiiiight im out slooozies

Guess whos camera is broken?? MINE!! BUT i posted some pickies from the webcam! yayyy!! I went to the renaissance festival with allicon today andi got my face painted super cool AND i made a rainbow wax hand! yeah dont worry its doing rock n roll fingers. it looks a lot cooler in person!! ANNNYWAY the ol ren fest was better this year than last year, no one tried to lock anyone in jail and OO i bought rasberry cheesecake mix, its really good. im pretty excited about it.

APRILS WEDDING!!! It was really fun! April looked sooo pretty! ill post pics on my facebook/myspace yadiyada. We danced silly. It was all oldies music, i tried to request billy idol and he said it wasnt wedding music. LAME. if i evvvvvvvvver get married it will be the coolest wedding ever. ill only play marilyn manson. thatll be it. i feel like ishould have more to say about it.. maybe ill think of something later. it was a wedding, i dont feel like anything crazy exciting happened. i wasnt even very drunk, and it was an OPEN BAR! gahh i feel like i drank sooo much but like the drinks just kept getting more watered down. i think they thought i was a lush so they watered them down but then i wasnt getting anything good for like the last 2 hours? who knows! it was sad! either way xtina and i went to the bar after and got a lot sillier and then had a pottery party and we danced to soul asylum in the nude. at like 3:30am she went to bed and i thought it was a good idea to order the new jason on demand (which dont worry, it costs money on my tv) and then i watched it for about 15 minutes and went to bed

Ummm i have a stupid doctor apointment tomorrow so they can tell me i have a bladder infection. i hope thats it, i just want it to go away. i tried to work out a few days ago and my vag was so irritated i had to stop. i was in the zone! dangit!!

What else?? I wanna do something fun for my b-day!! like really fun! i dont know what for sure. me and christina were discussing going to the rock n roll hall of fame and finding a hotel by like a bar or something and getting silly. i dont know. i wanna go somewhere. i dont think ill be able to do anything on my actual birthday, its a sunday lammmmme. i think im still gunna take the day off though and just fart around i guess. For once in my life my motha asked what i wanted and i didnt know! well thats a lie, i told her to send me on a cruise but as it turns out thats too much sooo im at a loss. i think my sisters probably making me soap.

im out of mary jane and im just not very happy about it. i dont even know what to do with myself right now! maybe its good i dont have any. but i do love it. last night i was out also and i scraped the resin out of my bongy and smoked it. thats where im at in life.

xtina is applying to grad school at wayne state. shes supposed to be my still living at home and not really doing anything buddy. im starting to feel really lame but im at a loss of what to do. its frustrating. i genuinely dont have any motivation or ambition right now. like none. i just want to have a good time. im going into downer mode and im over it.

im covered in glitter. like 3 people at the fessstival threw glitter on me. it makes me a better person. i was watching e news and it said there would be a heathers tv show?? i dont think that would go well.